The Edge of Never – J.A. Redmerski

Friday, December 28, 2012

For me:
"The Edge of Never is a book craved to be read,
and to be reread, again and again."

 “Sometimes you read a book so special that you want to carry it around with you for months after you've finished just to stay near it.”
- Markus Zusak
And I agree with Markus, and I shall share you a book that is very special:

The Edge of Never – Jessica Ann Redmerski

"Twenty-year-old Camryn Bennett had always been one to think out-of-the-box, who knew she wanted something more in life than following the same repetitive patterns and growing old with the same repetitive life story. And she thought that her life was going in the right direction until everything fell apart.

Determined not to dwell on the negative and push forward, Camryn is set to move in with her best friend and plans to start a new job. But after an unexpected night at the hottest club in downtown North Carolina, she makes the ultimate decision to leave the only life she’s ever known, far behind.

With a purse, a cell phone and a small bag with a few necessities, Camryn, with absolutely no direction or purpose boards a Greyhound bus alone and sets out to find herself. What she finds is a guy named Andrew Parrish, someone not so very different from her and who harbors his own dark secrets. But Camryn swore never to let down her walls again. And she vowed never to fall in love.

But with Andrew, Camryn finds herself doing a lot of things she never thought she’d do. He shows her what it’s really like to live out-of-the-box and to give in to her deepest, darkest desires. On their sporadic road-trip he becomes the center of her exciting and daring new life, pulling love and lust and emotion out of her in ways she never imagined possible. But will Andrew’s dark secret push them inseparably together, or tear them completely apart?"

Due to sexual content and language, this book is recommended for 17+ – Adult Contemporary Women’s – New Adult Fiction

Summary and Picture from J.A. Redmerski's Official Site

I was fortunate enough to win this ebook from Autumn Reviews and a copy was sent via email by J.A. Redmerski herself! *giddy dance* but I regret that I just read this yesterday. I had this since December 7 :|

I shall share to you the magnificence of this brilliantly-written story.

Disclaimer: A long and definitely a post that I might keep on updating. I cannot say how much this novel had made an impact on me. It is one of the most wonderful and beautifully-written novels to date.

This is unusual but I need to post the rating because I am having a feeling that I will be completely immense by sharing my view of this story, so for that matter:

I personally rate this as 5+++ out of 5.
It exceeded everything I can ever imagine.
And it deserves to be better than what ratings can give.


Do you feel like all you can say is WOW? This book left me speechless and stunned for moments, this book kept me up all night, since this is one of the books that keeps you hooked. And honestly, I am more than glad I did finished it. Justice is not served if I keep myself silent about the brilliance of this book.

Is it possible to fall in love with a novel and completely captivates you until the book is over?
Is it possible that you can be more than a reader but also a part of the journey this book has to offer?
Is it possible to reflect on how real and true the sentences and words were written? That it keeps you stunned and sometimes reread that part again because of how it was clearly stated and you can understand it very well?
Is it possible that even it is a book it makes use of all your senses and feel every bit of it?
Mostly, is it possible that there is a perfectly-written book which utterly keeps you at loss yet ironically sates or fulfills you?

There are a lot of "Is it possible" questions in my mind and it will make this post longer; so I shall exclude some. But I must tell you, for me, this book is a hands-down!
And if you agree with me and take my words or questions for that matter, well then, this is a perfect book desired to be coveted and be craved to be read and reread, again and again.

First off: The cover and summary:

            There is something about the cover that makes me read it. Cam's back is turned and half of her face is being shown, there is the look of despair, misery, grief and longing and for that matter it made me want to read it. As of the summary, it makes me want to read it more and the question of "Who is Andrew?" makes me want to solve the curiosity building in my mind and take hold of what lies ahead in the story itself.

Dwelling on the story:

I have two words for this book, it might not be the best description but this is what comes and pops out from my mind when I think about this book:
Perfectly Overwhelming.

The plot, the pace, the characters, everything. Yes, everything about it was perfect. I cannot tell you how much I fell in love and continue to fall in love with this book. The thing about this book is that it is welcoming you to be a part of it. It grows on you: enjoying and understanding every part of it. It is set in a harmonious pace, neither was it slow to speak nor fast to take over, it was set in a way wherein it wants you to understand the characters better. True enough, that pace made me understand every unraveling moment. And I personally am not only a reader but had become a part of their journey. This is a story about: self-discovery, liberality, friendship, love, romance, trust and anything just about what life has to offer.

The story was written in both characters’ POV, wherein I would say was perfect. Even though, Cam was primarily having more moments; it is refreshing to read Andrew’s part, after some time. There was time that it seems like that part of the story was perfectly written for one character so you can hear and understand the both of them. Sometimes we need to hear the other to know what is happening; and that was delivered in the story, I prefer this kind than one POV. Can I add how Andrew’s POV and lines makes me either laugh or swoon over him? Well, read for yourself. I will just add how much I love that the story of Orpheus and Eurydice had been included. I knew this story from my Classical Literature class and I really liked it; and to have this included in the story was one of the sweet parts in the story. I do not want to give Jessica an ego boost but to be honest, I can see this story as one of the Classics (wherein the story itself is appreciated, no matter what happens and to the future years to come).

In the first part of the story Cam was running away from her problems and primarily getting away from the tedious life she has. These had made her get a bus ticket to Idaho and here, my dear, begins the beauty of the story.
The tour, she was not expecting, a journey. And a trip where she is discovering herself.
She met our leading, dashing, alpha male, caring, charming, let’s just say almost perfect lad, the 25 year old, Andrew Parrish. Let me just add, I really thought he was the guy being pertained to at the first page (I still do).
I think what happened in those bus rides was one of the most exciting things I had read: reluctance, independence and beginnings. This had brought these two, Cam and Andrew, the building of friendship and trust.

Character wise, I would say, I would never think of anyone to place in their position, what was their past was a part of them, their becoming and which made the story much more perfect. I would like you to see a sneak peek of the story: both of them has weight on their shoulders and they will find themselves learning from each other and standing together. As much as I want to say more, I would not divulge the characters, since it is better to know it yourself, you will find yourself loving the characters, understanding them and filling their shoes as your own.

As I had written above, the story completely makes you a part of it. The more the story progresses, it divulges something new. There is a new piece of the puzzle and more emotions rising. I never had a feeling of that before. The story develops a sense of connection between the characters and I as a reader. It felt like the journey made use of all my senses, I can see the places they have been to, I think I was physically there to smell the wind, to gaze up the starts and everything in between (well sans the sexual parts, that I disappear). It was their moment and in that time you feel like it was yours to cherish too!

Oh yeah, I do need to remind you, if you had not notice the disclaimer from the author, this book has a lot of sexual parts, so beware. It was steamy to sizzling hot. And it is not, just sex or fucking, excuse my choice of words, but honestly, you know and you can read and feel there is more than that, there is connection and love altogether.

And saying a lot, everything that was happening was just right. It really is. You may think, fantasy since it is almost perfect and everything, but it is not. She met her knight-and-shining-armor, in a way yes, but it is not like that. It was set in a very realistic manner that made me feel it was really true. That they had become acquaintances, friends, more than friends right before your very eyes.

This book was such a transcending read; it had snatched me physically, emotionally and mentally. It takes you to a whole new perception of life: Living the moment.

“You dwell on the past, you can’t move forward. Spend too much time planning for the future and you just push yourself backwards, or you stay stagnant in the same place all your life.” His eyes lock on mine. “Live in the moment.” - Andrew

Can I confess now how much I wanted a road trip like theirs? Just living the moment. No holds barred. Nada, just living what life has to offer. And like what Cam and Andrew agreed, “Before” they run out of money, that’s when they’ll work but never at the same place and same job; and I admire how they just wanted to live the ‘now’ more than anything.

But there will always be a part where every journey ends. I do not want to spoil but, if there wasn’t any “2 months later,” I’ll tell you, I’m going to be crying on my knees, going to beg Jessica to continue. Yes, I did not expect that one but that made everything that was all right to a heart-wrenching part for me. Like any road trip, it needs to end. But truthfully, it was just a detour.

After that entire journey with them: the laughter, the drama, the romance, it became an unforgettable experience. And by the end, it was not just a new beginning but a continuous journey to take. It seemed like I was in the journey that I find it exhilarating too! I was drained with all my emotions that it made me feel at loss for some time yet felt freed and fulfilled. Which was ironic since feeling at loss seems hollow and empty; but this got me at fault, I was sated. I felt exhausted by the journey but contented. It seemed like I was really part of the journey that it really felt like I had been gone for weeks with both Cam and Andrew. It was very refreshing and in a way… freeing.

I really did not intend this to be this dramatically long but I tell you, there’s too much depth and an once-over is unacceptable. There are more words to be divulged as the story progress and when you reread it. There is too much emotion and thought in my head at this moment that I do not think I did gave justice to this wonderful book. To be honest, even when I say ‘wonderfully-written’, I don’t think that’s sufficient enough to describe this book. But anyhow, I did try my best to share how this book had completely captivated me.

I never thought I would tear up writing this opinion. Okay, let’s be fair, this is not a review; but this seems like a first page in my diary about The Edge Of Never. I must tell you, this book is like a slate for me, like a piece in your life where it is planned yet you need to alter some to make it yours. I always say to myself, everything is similar but never the same. Like this one, this book may be similar to others, this might be similar to what I want but it will never be the same as the others. To be honest, I had written awhile ago how much it had made an impact on me that I very much want to continue their journey but with me and with my better half.

I have much more to say but I'd rather that you read The Edge of Never now and share its brilliance to others. Let's have a journey, a road trip, and just live the moment!

Spoiler but mostly a thank you:
            I am afraid I cannot give one. I want to have some spoilers to get some to read it but I think the cover and the summary is pretty much what you need to give in. And as much as I want to spoil, I do not know where to start; and honestly, what to say. But this I can assure you:

The Edge of Never is not only a novel that is a journey towards self-discovery and of life; but by the end of the book, it does not end, it becomes a part of you which in turn, becomes something that is personal.

I wanted to say thank you.”
“For what?” …
 ”… for making me feel alive.”…
“Well, everybody needs help feeling alive again every once in a while.”
“No,” she says seriously… “I didn’t say 
again, Andrew; for making me feel alive for the first time.”
- I shall say:
Back at you, Jessica. Thank you for making me alive for the first time.
Thank you for this transcending, wonderfully-written, welcoming journey.

Extra you need not to read:

Just sharing my post at Jessica’s Facebook Page:

"Jessica, I have 2 words about The Edge Of Never: Perfectly Overwhelming :)
*I am torn if perfect or completely is the best word to use, but it's manageable :)

I do not do reviews but this one, I cannot let pass.
It was such a poignant read. It was such a journey wherein I didn't just felt like a reader but as a part of the story.

For me, this is one of the books which deserves in the Classics. :) Don't get me wrong but this book is one of the best to be read and reread; and even in the years to come it's like a book where any person (above 17 years) should read.

To be honest, I gained moral lesson about this one. I do not know how or what to feel afterwards. I was at loss but ironic, since I did not felt empty but somehow fulfilled. It sated me in a way I didn't know was possible.

Lastly, it was not just a novel. But a journey of becoming and discovery."

*I hope I had given justice in my comment to your book. I hope it was adequate enough to express my scrambled overwhelming thoughts about this book.

Thank you so much for writing this wonderful story! :)

-     Jassie

6 sprinkled sunshines:

J.A. Redmerski said...

What a wonderful review, Jassie! Thank you so much for your kind words and I'm so glad Camryn and Andrew's story touched you. You really made my day! :-)

Jas Dela Cruz said...

OMGosh, thank you so much for reading my thoughts! I can't believe that I managed to still produce coherent thoughts. I was so overwhelmed by your story!

You are very welcome, Jessica! :) I am very thankful for you book, I never felt liberated by a book before; but you made it possible! :) They indeed was such an inspiration :)

I'll re-quote you, thank you for making me alive :D And I am at bliss that I made your day! :)

Sarah Elizabeth said...

Well done on reading it already! You only got it on december 7th! That is pretty good going!
I have to say that from the moment I saw this cover I wanted to read this book :)
Absolutely beautiful review - I have to read this now :)

Jas Dela Cruz said...

Yay! Thank you! :) Yep, I was fortunate enough to win at Autumn Review :) But I do regretted that I lagged on reading it! :(
That's great! There's really something about the cover that you want to read it immediately. Something really mysterious and you want to know it :)
Aww, thank you very much; even though I do not really intend it to be as such. But thank you for the compliment, Sarah!
Have fun and do enjoy the road trip with Andrew and Camryn :)

Anonymous said...

OMG, totally loved this book. Could not put it down until I was done!!

Jas Dela Cruz said...

*Anonymous: So did I! Mega-love! We had the very same sentiments! Such a page-turner and emotion-filled!

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